Law of Attraction or Law of Affliction?

bigstock-Portrait-of-reptilian-man-in-e-19487438Few people know that prior to following Christ, I lived a life immersed in new thought teachings, metaphysical studies and hermeticism. Authors like Ernest Holmes, Charles Fillmore, Emmet Fox and Joel Goldsmith were just a few of the regulars on my reading list.

Why am I telling you this? For a few months now God has been pressing on me that it’s time to share my past – something I have been very reluctant to do. You see, the practice of these teachings nearly destroyed my life and surely contributed to the demise of my first marriage – in fact, upon becoming a new creation in Christ, I vowed to never speak of or even look in the direction of my past again unless it served God’s purposes somehow.

Well, the time has come for His purposes to be known as it pertains to my personal story and I have no choice but to make myself vulnerable in sharing my testimony. My hope is that my experiences will serve to bring truth, awareness and freedom to those who think they can use the law of attraction to gain control of their circumstances and consequently steer their life in the direction they desire.

“Control Your Thoughts, Control Your Life” they say – while it is true that our beliefs influence our thoughts and in turn guide our actions, most of us really have no idea what we are asking for when we take on the role of pseudo gods and goddesses trying to shape our own reality by controlling our thoughts. Rather than taking captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ (2 Cor. 10:5), controlling our thoughts becomes a game with the objective of conjuring up anything we want to manifest in the physical realm.

Looking back, I confess that I was absolutely obsessed with this “game” and manifesting success and prosperity came very easily for me. The problem is, I always wanted more and the idea of controlling every aspect of life via my thoughts absolutely consumed me.

You see, the law of attraction is never satisfied and it is almost always centered on success, fame, riches, power and other self-centered pursuits.  If it wasn’t, we’d all be sitting around visualizing an end of poverty, war and cancer.  In my case, whenever things happened in my favor, I would tell myself what a skilled master of manifestation I was becoming and consequently, if something bad happened, I would blame myself for not being able to prevent or control the situation with my thoughts.

The law of attraction quickly became the law of affliction because I could not handle the pressure of “being in charge” of my own destiny. I spent much of my time in fear of not being able to adequately control my thoughts and read endless books on how to get better at it.

It all came to a screeching halt when one of my daughters nearly drowned during a visit to the pool with her dad. What I had referred to as “the universe” was threatening to snuff out the light of someone who means more to me than life itself.  My world absolutely crumbled and my theories, methods and false sense of being in control of my world came crashing down in a single afternoon sitting by her bedside in the hospital.

What started with me thinking all things in the material realm are a result of our thoughts and there was no such thing as sin and evil, ended with me lying on my bed, sobbing uncontrollably and crying out to God to help me make sense of the situation.

Because He loves me beyond measure and had been patiently waiting for the moment I return to His heart, He responded to my pleading almost instantly. I simply cannot describe the emotions I experienced when I finally put my life in His hands. It was at this point that He opened my eyes and showed me what was really going on. I had never before really understood that our drive to control our life circumstances was akin to the desire that led to Adam and Eve’s fall (Gen. 3:4).

Most importantly, God taught me that I didn’t need to strive, that His burden was light and His yoke was easy (Matt. 11:30). I never breathed a bigger sigh of relief than the moment I realized HE was already in perfect control and thus all I had to do was trust Him to take care of me, His beloved daughter.

Of course my conversion and subsequent transformation were not instantaneous but it is undoubtedly irreversible. I ended up destroying every new thought and occult book, cd and other material that had ever entered my home and struggled with feeling guilty for choosing to exalt my own “creation abilities” for so many years rather than submitting to Christ’s leadership. Through it all God showed me that nothing is ever wasted and that regardless of my path up to this point, He had a purpose for my life. All that really mattered was that I reconciled with Him.

I would later learn how God planned to use my testimony to help others discern influences in their lives that are not from Him. My work today has evolved into not only helping others grab hold of God’s calling to entrepreneurship but He is also using me to be a voice of caution to those who are dangerously close to walking away from His truth, often without even realizing it.

If you think the occult is easily recognizable in things like black magic, Ouija boards, etc., think again.  The enemy is the most cunning deceiver (1 Peter 5:8) and as a result, many Christians today have seamlessly blended their beliefs with elements of non-Christian teachings and most alarmingly, the practice of the occult.  In the spirit of “self-improvement” we have all but erased the idea of sin, suffering and evil and have firmly planted mankind on the throne.  In fact, many have gotten so good at this that they effortlessly pervert, add to and omit scripture to suit their needs.

“For the time will come when people will not put up with sound doctrine.  Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear.  They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths.” (2. Tim. 4:3-4)

Do any of the following statements resonate with you?

  • I feel drawn to books like “The Secret”, “Think and Grow Rich”, “The Science of Getting Rich”

  • I have written myself “million dollar” checks, created vision boards and recited affirmations as if they were spells

  • I frequently visualize my success and get into the “feeling” of already having what I want

  • I have or feel tempted to consult psychics, tarot cards and other divination tools to see what my future holds

  • I often pray for a specific outcome rather than God’s will to be done in a given situation

  • I consider the prophetic a tool to get what I want from God and get insight into my future

  • I follow teachers who “neutralize” God by referring to Him as source, universe, spirit, etc. and make no mention of His son, Jesus Christ

If so, and especially if you are a Believer, I urge you to familiarize yourself with the true origins of the material you read/watch and incorporate into your life (1 Thess. 5:21).  It is not my place to condemn or convict, I can only pray that you use my example to examine your beliefs and practices (Ezekiel 33:6). 

There is so much more to say on this topic and God may very well call on me to write an entire book about it someday, however, for now I must leave you with a reminder that it is never too late to return to the foundation of God’s word.  Simply ask Him to bless you with discernment and to uproot anything in your life that is not aligned with His truth.

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